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You know how things in life just seem to take a downhill course and you end up realizing that you've changed so much in the past year or so...it's like you don't even know who you are anymore.  A lot of the things you think are going well or you hope for just end up as disappointments.  It gets to the point where you don't want to believe in anything anymore because you don't want to be disappointed or put down again.  You can like someone for a very long time, and actually think that things could get better...until someone just steals that person's heart away because you aren't assertive enough to do or say anything.  

You make so many mistakes in life that you end up literally hating these three things in life; 'Me, Myself, and I'  So many regrets that you wish you could go back in time to fix but you know you never can and never will.  You can stay up at night for as long as you want to wondering why and how you've become this way when you thought that the world was just so perfect a while back.  Maybe you've opened your eyes and realized that nothing's perfect.  Nothing can be.  

You loose you inspiration to do well in anything...the high 90's and 100 averages go down to the eighties and all you can count on when you go home is world war three.  Things you once enjoyed are nothing now.  Just little things that contribute to your frustration and stress.  And when the little things combine with the big you end up breaking down one day.

And some people just don't get it.  They hover and flit over you, demanding what's wrong when all you want is for them to freaking leave you alone.  A wall is your only company in the mornings at school, and all you can do is listen to your music in your own little world while looking at the person you like...just laughing and talking with the person who stole their heart away.

Call me oversensitive.

Call me overdramatic.

Call me whatever the hell you want.

All I can say is that I'm glad no one knows who I am on here.

People need to open their fucking eyes.